I am going to be direct and honest about this. I won’t be posting pages for a bit as I deal with some of my problems.
I am addicted to porn. I understand now that it started as a response to anxiety and stress at a bad time in my life. As much as I struggled to understand the reason for it, that was it. Dealing with stress and anxiety. Like any addict, I kept going with it for the highs and the thrills of it. Even after I got a girlfriend, it continued to be a part of my life. On some level, the thrills and highs of it were even stronger.
As was the crash after. I have hated myself for a long time because of this. Guilt, deception, disappointment and anger have been a part of my life for some time now. Lying to myself and people I care about. Like all lies, it came back to haunt me. Now I might have destroyed one of the most important things in my life.
I am learning more about the process of dealing with this. I have a lot of trust to rebuild and work to do to make things right again. Hopefully I will be posting some new comics in the coming weeks as I get back on track.